about dad

gw emang agak bawel kata orang orang. tp kata mama mungkin ada hubungannya sama cerita ini. lol
mama cerita tentang papa waktu gw baru lahir. bokap gw super sayang n excited sama kelahiran gw x)
gw juga mau cari husband yang sayang banget sama anak anak gw !! sesayang bokap gw ke gw

kata mama dulu waktu gw baru lahir ari-ari gw harus di kubur di bawah pohon depan rumah. Bokap gw yang kuburin ari-ari itu.

Suster rumah sakit bilang syaratnya , selama perjalanan pulang dr RS sampe selesai kubur ari-ari , bokap gw GA BOLEH NGOMONG SAMA SEKALI. my mum didn't even know kalo syaratnya kayak gt. nyokap ajak ngomong bokap gw terus . bokap gw tetepp diemm ♥
padahal wkt perjalanan pulang itu macet. tapi bokap rela tetep diem :)

sampe akhirnya bokap gw lagi ngubur ari-ari gw di depan rumah. ada tukang koran dateng nganter koran. sampe hampir setengah jam panggilin bokap gw terus. bokap gw uda tahan buat ga ngomong. sampe akhirnya ga tahan juga. bokap gw bilang 'TARUH AJA!'

tapi gw appreciate his hardwork for being quite that long ONLY FOR ME .

ILY DADDY FOR-E-V-E-R ♥

FIGHT FOR THIS LOVE - Cheryl Cole

Too much of anything can make you sick
Even the good can be a curse
Makes it hard to know which road to go down
Knowing too much can get you hurt
Is it better
Is it worse
Are we sitting in reverse
It's just like we're going backwards
I know where I want this to go
Driving fast but lets go slow
What I don't want to do is crash, no

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Lets just go back, back, back, back, back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Sure enough worth fighting for
Quittings out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight somemore
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

Now everyday ain't gonna be no picnic
Love ain't no walk in the park
All you can do is make the best of it now
Can't be afraid of the dark

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Lets just go back, back, back, back, back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Sure enough worth fighting for
Quittings out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight somemore
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

I don't know where we're heading
I'm willing and ready to go
We've been driving so fast
We just need to slow down and just roll

Anything that's worth having
Sure enough worth fighting for
Quittings out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

Anything that's worth having
Sure enough worth fighting for
Quittings out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/cheryl-cole-lyrics/fight-for-this-love-lyrics.html ]

i'm not accepted in NAFA college :)

my emoticon is :) not :(
yeah, gw emang dari awal rada ragu kok mau ke luar negri. gw bukan tipe anak yang mandiri. dan gw ga keterima di NAFA ga bikin gw sedih sama sekali.

kecewa. mungkin iya..
But hey! Kegagalan bukan akhir dari segalanya. Kegagalan awal dari keberhasilan. Kegagalan adalah keberhasilan yang tertunda..
ya mungkin emang bener..
i didn't do well in the test last time, iya sih itu bikin gw kecewa 'sedikit'.
tapi gw ga kecewa bangetbanget kok. gw tau gw masih pemula di bidang ini. gw masih perlu banyak latihan lagi.
dan gw mikir , kalo kegagalan ini malah jadi pacuan buat gue :) pacuan buat lebih rajinn..
gw emang dulu jarang banget latian.. dan skrg mau lebih rajin lagi.
gw masih pemula kok, dan waktu itu saingan gw semua yang uda expert.
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waktu itu gw lagi main TheSims3, tiba tiba ada telfon di BB gw , from: ELMOLINE NAFA.
feeling gw uda ga enaak. tp pasrah aja..
ternyata bener "halo clarissa, dengan berat hati aku hrs kasi tau bahwa kamu blm keterima di NAFA"
gw diem bentar.. "oohh hahah iya gpp"
Kata kakak nya : taun ini emang banyak yg ga keterima,, nafa lagi naikin standardnya.. ada 18 orang yang rejected.. salah satunya temen deket gw selama belajar gambar di elmoline..
yaudalah mungkin emang bukan jodoh gw masuk NAFA,
dan dari minggu minggu sebelumnya gw uda berdoa.. krn perasaan gw emang ga enak.
gw emang pengen bisa sekolah di singapore, tempat yg menurut gw paling 'aman', tapi disisi lain gw belom siap ninggalin mama-papa.. kamar pink-ungu impian gw.. vocal lesson gw.. semua fasilitas yang serba ada.. dan gw ga kebayang kalo gw harus cari makan sendiri disana.

gw emang ga enak sama bokap nyokap gw yang udah support gw, dan pas terima hasilnya mereka ga marah sama sekali..
mereka malah takut gw sedih karena ga keterima.
padahal, gw lebih sedih kalo harus ninggalin Jakarta :(
4 tahun di NAFA kayaknya bisa bikin gw home-sick banget. emang sih jarak ga jauh. cuma singapore-jakarta. tapi gw nginep di rumah sodara yang jaraknya cuma sepetak aja , gw bisa nangis minta pulang !
jadi, yaudah enjoy everything what i have now, ga ada yg perlu di sesalin.
apalagi minggu-minggu sebelumnya gw uda berdoa ke Tuhan buat kasih gw yang terbaik apapun itu. kalo emang akhirnya gw ga keterima di NAFA. berarti itu yang terbaik :)

*mungkin tuhan tau gw bakal ga betah

and you know what the good part is? :)
i'm still 16 , my life isn't over yet.
as long as my parents support me, i'll be okay


keep your heads up, guys
xoxox